Unfolding: A Personal Account of Reintegrating the Spiritual and Sensual Parts of Self

 I  sense that there is more to why our paths crossed. This new expansive identity is part of finding my own autonomy. She is teaching me how to reconcile the spiritual with the material, the sexual with the spiritual, and tap into  my sacred sexuality and embrace it. Allow it to nourish my being and honor the disavowed pieces of my childhood and reconcile my spirit and body. The nature of this union is not painless. However, I have experienced a death of ideals and a dying of mindsets that has brought confusion along with enlightenment. The dark feminine embodies paradoxical sates of pain and pleasure, life & death, creative and destructive energy, light and dark. I have been depleted of one reality for the filling of another. As my innocence died, a much more expansive reality and identity is emerging. I am  reintegrating the spiritual & the sexual parts of my being; the material & spiritual parts of reality. I am learning to embrace the girl, maiden, and crone whom lives within me. She is becoming a part of my identity, and in this process of dying to who I was, it peels back the many layers, going deeper to uncover and rebirth who I will become; this is a continual unfolding.